Sorry i was gone for so long....things came up
Anyways!
Did you know pickles have 0 calories!
Did you know they are like my top 3 favorit food
You know im only going to pickles this week. They are high in sodium though so it might not look like im losing wait but the second i stop eating them and go into a fast i am thinking i might lose 3 or 4 pounds.
Going to start running everyday. Found out how to hide my fasting too from my mother so that will be good.
I got a nook :D. so i can read and not eat now. My brother is going to get books for me too. So ill be set for a good month or so. I gave him a pretty big list hehe.
Today im planning to run 3 or 4 miles. I can normaly burn 150 calories in 30 mins (not alot i know) so i will most likely run for about 8 hours. should be around 2400 calories so.
make up for all the food i ate yesterday :(. I feel like a pig. Maybe ill run more. maybe all night long. I would like to run more. Just keep running until i faint.
anyways love you guys
<3 Alice
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Understand that you are worthless to me now
Intake-755
what i ate was rather small....just not something normal to me. I Went over to a friends house so. Tomorrow it will be smaller intake.
I dont really feel like talking now. My heart has been broken to many times and i have cried to many times this month. I just feel like im better alone. Some people are completely worthless to me. They always will be
what i ate was rather small....just not something normal to me. I Went over to a friends house so. Tomorrow it will be smaller intake.
I dont really feel like talking now. My heart has been broken to many times and i have cried to many times this month. I just feel like im better alone. Some people are completely worthless to me. They always will be
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Going numb
Today i just told the person i loved the most good bye. I no longer feel hungry or do i have cravings. All i want to do is die in a hole. I feel like a robot right now. All i want to do is sit a wait till i fall asleep. Im not really sure i can do anything right anymore. This isnt the first time this has happened. And it will hopefully be the last.
Ana take me into your sweet arms for tonight and forever will i need you the most.
<3 Alice
Ana take me into your sweet arms for tonight and forever will i need you the most.
<3 Alice
Friday, November 26, 2010
Hmmmm
I ate left over pie this morning.....not so good. Fasting for the rest of the day im thinking ^_^.
Hope everyone is doing good. Sorry not much to say.
<3 Alice
Hope everyone is doing good. Sorry not much to say.
<3 Alice
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Turkey day
Just finshed eating ^_^ i ate as little as i could. AND IM STILL FULL!
I had potatos with gravy =250?? not sure but the was alittle butter that i picked around so better safe then sorry
Turkey- 25 i only had one bite of this and it was small but again better on the safe side
Stuffing- 25 again only one bite
Two small rolls with butter- i wana say 550 i mean the rools have about 120 in them and then the butter so about 440? we will say that
In all so far -740
Plus a small peace of pie-180
so 920 in all
That is alot ill have to do alittle running today and stuff .
<3 Alice
I had potatos with gravy =250?? not sure but the was alittle butter that i picked around so better safe then sorry
Turkey- 25 i only had one bite of this and it was small but again better on the safe side
Stuffing- 25 again only one bite
Two small rolls with butter- i wana say 550 i mean the rools have about 120 in them and then the butter so about 440? we will say that
In all so far -740
Plus a small peace of pie-180
so 920 in all
That is alot ill have to do alittle running today and stuff .
<3 Alice
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
not such a bad day
I did really well today i was happy with myself. I mean it wasnt the best but for just coming out of a bing party it was good. 600-750 calories it all.
Pretty good?
Im eating a muffin right now. I think it has been an hour from the time i took the first bite. I just dont feel all that hungry (yes i counted the muffin in the calories) but not to bad. Im going to be staying home all week tomorrow cause im sick and the rest for thanksgiving break. On thanksgiving im going to eat normal and take my time. I will take long lasting drinks and talk about before bites So it takes time and i feel full. Because there is only one food i enjoy that will be my largest one and the only one i eat.
Just eat normally talk to others and try to keep food out for as long as you can so when everyone is done and gets up to leave no one will say a thing and if someone dose say you were talking the whole time cause you were.
anyways that was random sorry
<3 Alice
Pretty good?
Im eating a muffin right now. I think it has been an hour from the time i took the first bite. I just dont feel all that hungry (yes i counted the muffin in the calories) but not to bad. Im going to be staying home all week tomorrow cause im sick and the rest for thanksgiving break. On thanksgiving im going to eat normal and take my time. I will take long lasting drinks and talk about before bites So it takes time and i feel full. Because there is only one food i enjoy that will be my largest one and the only one i eat.
Just eat normally talk to others and try to keep food out for as long as you can so when everyone is done and gets up to leave no one will say a thing and if someone dose say you were talking the whole time cause you were.
anyways that was random sorry
<3 Alice
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Thank you
You guys are the best i love the comments and everything. Makes me feel like someone cares. my brother is in the room so i cant say much. Just wanted to thank the people who commented. I finally feel like someone is there to listen. Better then my own friends and i hardly know everyone. So again thank you and i believe that with the help i can do this. One last time thank you!
<3 Alice
<3 Alice
Thursday, November 18, 2010
OMG
I need to get out of this bing fest! All i do it eat eat eat eat eat! I mean i will even eat when im full i dont get it! Its so gross! Its only when i get home from school if i can just avoid that time frame then i wont bing. I was thinking of staying after school for a few weeks just to get out of the habit.
Going to maybe try a fast again just to drop alittle bit of weight before thanks giving.
Got to go
<3 Alice
Going to maybe try a fast again just to drop alittle bit of weight before thanks giving.
Got to go
<3 Alice
Sunday, November 14, 2010
From this day on
Ana is my only friend. Ana is the only person i can trust. Ana is the only person who wont lie to me. Cause today i just found out that everyone i know dose lie to me. Not only did my own cousin take a guy that i told her i liked she DID NOT tell me about it. I had to find out from him. My own cousin! I mean i would be OK with it if she had dated him but what is making me upset about the whole thing is that so did not, not one word, tell me about it. I feel so sick. I want to purg right now so bad. Feels like i need to get everything bad out. Do you know what i mean. I dont really feel hungry right now.
I don't feel like eating anymore.
I don't feel like sleeping.
I feel like a cant trust anyone anymore i mean i thought my cousin...was...my friend my family the one person i could trust (other then ana) and she lies!
...Just going to start fasting right now...try and get some control back into my life.I feel like i have nothing. I just spent the whole day with her today. Laughing and having a good time and it did not come to her mind once to tell me!
Anyone want to chat with me email
I could really use a friend right now.
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
I don't feel like eating anymore.
I don't feel like sleeping.
I feel like a cant trust anyone anymore i mean i thought my cousin...was...my friend my family the one person i could trust (other then ana) and she lies!
...Just going to start fasting right now...try and get some control back into my life.I feel like i have nothing. I just spent the whole day with her today. Laughing and having a good time and it did not come to her mind once to tell me!
Anyone want to chat with me email
I could really use a friend right now.
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
Friday, November 12, 2010
Getting back on track
So im having the hardest time getting back on track. I keep eating and eating and eating. I can fast or anything so im going to start off with a 600 cal diet salad fruit all that fun stuff. Then ever....week? im going to cut it down by 100 until i get to zero the ill fast and i found some new tips to make it seem like im eating and ways of hiding it ^_^ anyone got tips be sure to tell me.
Sunday i got lunch with some family so i will have one meal of 600 calories because normally that one meal will feel me up. Ill start off with light burning of the calories ill start off with 100 a day and every week when my intake gose down how much i burn will go up. So by the time of the fast ill be burning 600 calories. Thats got to be alot of pounds.
Ill talk with you guys later sorry everything is so short iv been really busy lately and i am still trying to post.
<3 Alice
Sunday i got lunch with some family so i will have one meal of 600 calories because normally that one meal will feel me up. Ill start off with light burning of the calories ill start off with 100 a day and every week when my intake gose down how much i burn will go up. So by the time of the fast ill be burning 600 calories. Thats got to be alot of pounds.
Ill talk with you guys later sorry everything is so short iv been really busy lately and i am still trying to post.
<3 Alice
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Feeling better
Ok im feeling well enough to run so im starting that tomorrow. Also in about a month we might get a tredmil so thats good news. I am also starting a thinspo book, just a small one for now.
Im going to only be eating 130 calories from now on as well. Im thinking one small salad in the morning and the rest will be for dinner so my mother dosnt think im fasting again. Salads (the ones i make) normally only have 50 cal at the most. So that leaves me with a few bites in front of her and the rest goes down stairs with me and into the toilet ^_^ .
Hope you all are doing well.
Wish you the best of love
<3Alice
Im going to only be eating 130 calories from now on as well. Im thinking one small salad in the morning and the rest will be for dinner so my mother dosnt think im fasting again. Salads (the ones i make) normally only have 50 cal at the most. So that leaves me with a few bites in front of her and the rest goes down stairs with me and into the toilet ^_^ .
Hope you all are doing well.
Wish you the best of love
<3Alice
Monday, November 8, 2010
Sick
I was going to go for a run in the first snow fall of the year until i got so sick i could hardly make it to my locker without passing out. so that sucks. I most likely cant even do P.E. tomorrow if it stays this bad. So for the days im to sick to move ill eat very little and take as many V-C that i can so i get better faster rest as much as i can so that way i will get better fast if i have to sleep in class to make this happen i will! I hate not being able to do anything to burn of even the little amount of calories that i plan to eat.
im going to read some of you blogs now and then head to bed and read the rest tomorrow.
<3 germy alice
im going to read some of you blogs now and then head to bed and read the rest tomorrow.
<3 germy alice
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Fast
Im doing a one-two day fast just because of how much i have been eatting lately. Im going to start running after school. Even when it starts snowing ill be out there on the track running.
Im noly going to be eatting 133 calories from now on as well. If im going to have a big dinner i will save them for that dinner. Pluse that way i shouldnt over eat much if i do have to eat. When it come down to dinner ill just eat a small plat of it. Ill be running alot more to like i said after school. I was think 40 mins to an hour. Then come home and do some more work out stuff. Also going to work on my grade mostly Bio though cause i want to be a coroner. Got to work on getting my life together. Grow up a little.
Hope everyone has a lovely day
<3 Alice
Im noly going to be eatting 133 calories from now on as well. If im going to have a big dinner i will save them for that dinner. Pluse that way i shouldnt over eat much if i do have to eat. When it come down to dinner ill just eat a small plat of it. Ill be running alot more to like i said after school. I was think 40 mins to an hour. Then come home and do some more work out stuff. Also going to work on my grade mostly Bio though cause i want to be a coroner. Got to work on getting my life together. Grow up a little.
Hope everyone has a lovely day
<3 Alice
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Ok
~Diet plan~
One greek yogert-130
4 jalapenos-3
One diet drink
Water!
Thats it...... jalapenos take away my hunger and the are hot so i cant have more then one at a time until my mouth cools off and it makes me not want to eat also low cal!
I will be running after school this week. Then when i get home i will do some other stuff. hope to burn about 1000 cals.
Also thank you Zette for the comment maybe i can find someone to text when the bing monster feel like coming out.
Anyone live in the U.S.? who likes me?.....or would like to talk with me
Email-alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
Facebook-http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/profile.php?id=100001778894569
Plan to be 108 pound got to make my mother think im 120 though
<3 Alice
(can you believe i spell my name Alive every time)
One greek yogert-130
4 jalapenos-3
One diet drink
Water!
Thats it...... jalapenos take away my hunger and the are hot so i cant have more then one at a time until my mouth cools off and it makes me not want to eat also low cal!
I will be running after school this week. Then when i get home i will do some other stuff. hope to burn about 1000 cals.
Also thank you Zette for the comment maybe i can find someone to text when the bing monster feel like coming out.
Anyone live in the U.S.? who likes me?.....or would like to talk with me
Email-alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
Facebook-http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/profile.php?id=100001778894569
Plan to be 108 pound got to make my mother think im 120 though
<3 Alice
(can you believe i spell my name Alive every time)
Friday, November 5, 2010
The sad thing
I hate hearing how everyone has and ana buddy. How it helps them so much and keeps them on track. It makes me wish i could have a friend like that. Someone i wouldnt have to lies to. Someone i could finally get close with. Just got to suck it up and breath.
Over ate fasting tomorrow
<3 Alice
Over ate fasting tomorrow
<3 Alice
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Hello lovely
So im thinking on how to get out of some of these calories
Bk- i will eat half the toast and 2/3s of the eggs and half of the ham
lunch- I eat lunch at school and i was just going to skip it like always
snak- ill eat it plain no fruit needed
dinner- I will eat half of what is given to me:D
Think it will work? Hope so
In all its (dose math) 419 cal ^_^ MWA HAHAHAHAHHA i mean.....nvm
Then 30 mins of running i can burn about 300 cal ill do that after school
then burn another.....700 cal at home
and then on the days i have P.E. i burn another 200
so how many i burn will be about 1000-1200
Cheer lol
As for me im doing ok. Trying to think of was or reason to stay after school untill it starts to snow then im going to have to run in the snow and well i will burn more them. Also thinking of cutting all but one diet drink a week out of my diet. Pluse i found a food i can it with like 1 cal in it and it makes me feel soooooo full.
Also dose anyone have a good place for thinspos? Im running out of places and im kind of getting tired with looking at the same ones. Also I'm trying to bring up my grade so i have nothing lower then a B. Growing my hairs out really long cause its never been long a day in its like (i like to cut it). Trying to reinvent myself. You know just be a better person. Found a job i want to do it has to do with the dead so im not going to go into it cause some people dont like to hear about death. I have like.....3 guys who have a crush on me... it sucks. Oh and i kind of like a guys
he is funny, smart, not that cute but i dont go for looks(weird i know) he is a HUGE!!!! flirt and that so funny to me. Alose he is two years older then me.....ya he's not going to like a little kid hope this will fade.
Anyways sorry that its jumps and not really planned i have home work to do well it not due tomorrow but still i would like to get it done soon.
Ill try to post a better blog next time
<3 Alice
Alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
http://www.facebook.com/#!/profile.php?id=100001778894569
Bk- i will eat half the toast and 2/3s of the eggs and half of the ham
lunch- I eat lunch at school and i was just going to skip it like always
snak- ill eat it plain no fruit needed
dinner- I will eat half of what is given to me:D
Think it will work? Hope so
In all its (dose math) 419 cal ^_^ MWA HAHAHAHAHHA i mean.....nvm
Then 30 mins of running i can burn about 300 cal ill do that after school
then burn another.....700 cal at home
and then on the days i have P.E. i burn another 200
so how many i burn will be about 1000-1200
Cheer lol
As for me im doing ok. Trying to think of was or reason to stay after school untill it starts to snow then im going to have to run in the snow and well i will burn more them. Also thinking of cutting all but one diet drink a week out of my diet. Pluse i found a food i can it with like 1 cal in it and it makes me feel soooooo full.
Also dose anyone have a good place for thinspos? Im running out of places and im kind of getting tired with looking at the same ones. Also I'm trying to bring up my grade so i have nothing lower then a B. Growing my hairs out really long cause its never been long a day in its like (i like to cut it). Trying to reinvent myself. You know just be a better person. Found a job i want to do it has to do with the dead so im not going to go into it cause some people dont like to hear about death. I have like.....3 guys who have a crush on me... it sucks. Oh and i kind of like a guys
he is funny, smart, not that cute but i dont go for looks(weird i know) he is a HUGE!!!! flirt and that so funny to me. Alose he is two years older then me.....ya he's not going to like a little kid hope this will fade.
Anyways sorry that its jumps and not really planned i have home work to do well it not due tomorrow but still i would like to get it done soon.
Ill try to post a better blog next time
<3 Alice
Alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
http://www.facebook.com/#!/profile.php?id=100001778894569
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
HELP!
My mother new about my fasting(the fat pig) So please email me and give me hints on how to hide cut and burn/exersize without her know i already have some ideas but i need more a bunch more
HELP!
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
Please people im at a lost
HELP!
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
Please people im at a lost
And the end is to soon
I ate nothing much just alittle. But still food is food. All well there are no more temtations in the house and one little thing was it. So here we go again. I know i can do it this time just need to get past this third day.
For the next three days.
-NO! going upstairs
-NO! hanging out with friends
-NO! going into the feeding room at school
-No! looking at anything with food
-NO! drinks that are not water
-YES! to running every days (it makes me feel full)
-YES! to drink as much water as i want
-YES! to flirting with the hot guy who sits next to me in one of my classes (shhhh he dosnt know i like him)
-YES! to all the thinspo i can take in
-YES! to doing P.E. (i skipped today bad fat cow me)
Later i got to go family here
For the next three days.
-NO! going upstairs
-NO! hanging out with friends
-NO! going into the feeding room at school
-No! looking at anything with food
-NO! drinks that are not water
-YES! to running every days (it makes me feel full)
-YES! to drink as much water as i want
-YES! to flirting with the hot guy who sits next to me in one of my classes (shhhh he dosnt know i like him)
-YES! to all the thinspo i can take in
-YES! to doing P.E. (i skipped today bad fat cow me)
Later i got to go family here
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Day two
Day two off my fast. So far so good. Dont feel hungry or light headed. Feel normal other then my hands shaking really bad. Im sure it will fade.
Tomorrow is day three. I have school on this day and will hopefully be ok. I got a water bottle to bring to school with me so i can drink water through out the day. My mother made my favorite food tonight and i was really Tempted to eat but did not. I told myself that at the end of this fast i can ask her to make it again and will eat it then. The best part about having it is that it is very healthy and will taste even better after. pulse i will be skinner and feel less like a fat ugly pig when i do eat it. Hopefully
I will speak with you tomorrow
<3 alice
Tomorrow is day three. I have school on this day and will hopefully be ok. I got a water bottle to bring to school with me so i can drink water through out the day. My mother made my favorite food tonight and i was really Tempted to eat but did not. I told myself that at the end of this fast i can ask her to make it again and will eat it then. The best part about having it is that it is very healthy and will taste even better after. pulse i will be skinner and feel less like a fat ugly pig when i do eat it. Hopefully
I will speak with you tomorrow
<3 alice
Friday, October 29, 2010
October
So today was ok
I didnt eat much
Tomorrow is the start of my fast. I cant wait! I wanted the third day to be when i had school so there was no way i would start eating a bunch of crap. This way i will stay after school and do homework that "has" to be done and i "need" some help from teachers. I cant eat at school and when it come time for lunch ill just say im "out" of lunch money. I will be buying a water bottle tomorrow that i can bring to school and carry around when i go places. I also thought of how to get out of the family dinner Nov 14 hehehe ^_^
So yea all i got to think of is how to get out off thanksgiving....this one is going to be hard but if it is my aunt cooking ill just say i dont like her food cause i dont.....its gross ^_^ most food is though so
Anyways i hope everyone is doing well at their diet.
Love alice
I didnt eat much
Tomorrow is the start of my fast. I cant wait! I wanted the third day to be when i had school so there was no way i would start eating a bunch of crap. This way i will stay after school and do homework that "has" to be done and i "need" some help from teachers. I cant eat at school and when it come time for lunch ill just say im "out" of lunch money. I will be buying a water bottle tomorrow that i can bring to school and carry around when i go places. I also thought of how to get out of the family dinner Nov 14 hehehe ^_^
So yea all i got to think of is how to get out off thanksgiving....this one is going to be hard but if it is my aunt cooking ill just say i dont like her food cause i dont.....its gross ^_^ most food is though so
Anyways i hope everyone is doing well at their diet.
Love alice
Thursday, October 28, 2010
I can do it now
Ok my friends
So this time im fasting (i know its a old record playing the same tune) and im ready i have a bunch of tips one from a blogger that i just loved and cant wait to try. Im ready for this i will fast until Nov.14 i have a family dinner that day i will only eat 1/3 of the meal on the plate and even then it will be small and low cal. after that i will be starting a fast again this one will be small like the other one only until thanksgiving then i will do another fast until new year with my cousin we normal eat a lot on this day and after ill will do a longer fast as long as i can until im happy
I will be updating you on the fast and what is going on im ready this time and i know i can do it.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Ok
Water fast...From now until a little past after school starts. I will loses hopefully around 30 pounds with this...I really kind of like that number. If you notice i did not say it will be starting next week,or tomorrow or something like that. IT is starting now cause i know if i wait ill never get it done... the only down side with starting it now is in a few weeks i will be breaking it for an outing with my grandfather. On this day i will eat very little five normal bites and then nothing more. I will claim i am not feeling well on this day. But on other days i can get away with not eating.
I must lose as much weight before school as i can.
So i can be
a brand new me
<3 Alice
I must lose as much weight before school as i can.
So i can be
a brand new me
<3 Alice
Friday, July 23, 2010
Sigh
I have no idea what to do with myself. I cant even think. It not that im hungry i eat anyways. What the "F" is up with that. I cant tel my mother no cause i scared with that one little no she will find out everything!
I need to get a back bone. Im going to start walking 3 miles a day. maby running another mile. Or run untell i puke sound more fun.
"There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down"
Im running today no matter what none stop. I will be thinner in time for school. I will drop all that i can intime for back to school night. Before anyone sees me like this fat pig. I sacred so see how much i am. Im just going to say 180 or over by how fat i look.
Cutting my hair off. Hahaha i dont want anyone to know its me when i go back to school. Then maby i can start over. Ya know, show them the real me. Cause if i can i know they will love me. That they will stop with everything. That maby i can be normal and fit in for once. I just want to be loved ana.
*Stops for stupid girl crying over nothing*
Anyways ya ill try again later
<3 Emily Alice Arizona (or just Alice)
I need to get a back bone. Im going to start walking 3 miles a day. maby running another mile. Or run untell i puke sound more fun.
"There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down"
Im running today no matter what none stop. I will be thinner in time for school. I will drop all that i can intime for back to school night. Before anyone sees me like this fat pig. I sacred so see how much i am. Im just going to say 180 or over by how fat i look.
Cutting my hair off. Hahaha i dont want anyone to know its me when i go back to school. Then maby i can start over. Ya know, show them the real me. Cause if i can i know they will love me. That they will stop with everything. That maby i can be normal and fit in for once. I just want to be loved ana.
*Stops for stupid girl crying over nothing*
Anyways ya ill try again later
<3 Emily Alice Arizona (or just Alice)
Friday, July 9, 2010
Soooo
Ya never started my 3 day fast so im starting it today
"Oh ow mommy my tummy hurt"
"Aww my poor baby whats wrong"
"I dont know it just hurts mommy" (saying mommy gets her every time)
"Well try not to eat to much today ok?"
"Ill try"
Easy ans pie....wait i hate pie. also think of deit pills or something not sure yet will see.
<3 Alice
"Oh ow mommy my tummy hurt"
"Aww my poor baby whats wrong"
"I dont know it just hurts mommy" (saying mommy gets her every time)
"Well try not to eat to much today ok?"
"Ill try"
Easy ans pie....wait i hate pie. also think of deit pills or something not sure yet will see.
<3 Alice
Saturday, July 3, 2010
3 Day Fast
Why only three days you ask?
Well you get all this crap out of my body! Nothing but water. All i have to do is tell me mother that i am not feeling well and she will go along with the whole thing on the third day though she might be like "You want to go to the Doctor" I will simply tell her give it a day or two and if its not better by then we will go. But it will get better mother. For i am the master of lies. With every word that leaves my mouth i have you at my feet. I can bring tear or joy to your life. Believe me on this. So stop fucking with my damn diet plan!
With this three day fast most of the crap will be done and gone with from my body. I will be nearly clean. I'm thinking at least every month doing this simple three day fast to clean it with that crap and junk that feels up over time. Maby even five day fast. With this cleaning maby my diet will work out better. I might even do this twice a month cause it so small and easy.
If this is a bad idea or if anyone has a better idea please let me know
Alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
<3 Alice
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Hello, People
Calories Aloud:400
Intake so far:50
Burned:0
Need to fix that last one.
Last night my very best friend called me fat without a second thought to it. Now if it was anyone else who said this i would of had a fit and started yelling. But with her i took it as a ...well I'm not sure how i took it.
Anyways, The past few bags have been over sized belly after over sized belly. This is something that needs to be fixed ASAP. So today I'm starting off slowly taking it ones step at a time. I have only had half a fruit today i with this could be all but when dinner comes along again i will take it slowly with a smaller plate and two full glasses of water.
My half sister a type 2. and is like 50:50 chance right now of living or dieing. I'm not sure whats wrong yet cause no one will tell me. So it pretty sad around my house right now.
Anyways to day is cleaning day and I'm off to work will let you know how today works out later.
<3 Alice
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Mermaids are real!
Ok so their is this video on youtube on how to make a mermaid tail...go ahead laugh such a childish thing right?
Laugh no more!
With this tail on you will be burning twice as many calories then you would have with out it! SUCK ON THAT
So my sister and i are going to make some ^_^
But before we do i want to lose some inches -.- i have maby two to 4 weeks to lose some pounds.....ya
Today went well at first, then i baby sat my nephew -.- i aways eat to much around him cause when i feed him he has to feed me...try telling a two year old no. and as soon as he starts talking i can throw up around him or talk to him about this dieting thing cause he will tell all little kids do -.-. I dont really throw up around him anymore cause one time after he was done eat he suck his finger in his mouth and acted like he was throwing up... that was the only time though...Monkey see monkey do, you have no idea how true that is.
<3 alice
Goal One:160 pound (ya i know im fat 166 pounds at the moment)
Laugh no more!
With this tail on you will be burning twice as many calories then you would have with out it! SUCK ON THAT
So my sister and i are going to make some ^_^
But before we do i want to lose some inches -.- i have maby two to 4 weeks to lose some pounds.....ya
Today went well at first, then i baby sat my nephew -.- i aways eat to much around him cause when i feed him he has to feed me...try telling a two year old no. and as soon as he starts talking i can throw up around him or talk to him about this dieting thing cause he will tell all little kids do -.-. I dont really throw up around him anymore cause one time after he was done eat he suck his finger in his mouth and acted like he was throwing up... that was the only time though...Monkey see monkey do, you have no idea how true that is.
<3 alice
Goal One:160 pound (ya i know im fat 166 pounds at the moment)
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
CRAMELLDANSEN
CRAMELLDANSEN
NOt to bad for a side work out if you do it long enough yes yes 5 hours so far HAHA!
Anyways ya just had to say that
<3 Alice
NOt to bad for a side work out if you do it long enough yes yes 5 hours so far HAHA!
Anyways ya just had to say that
<3 Alice
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Thanks Mother
Wow...
My so called "Mother" just called me fat...hmmm ya
She can go burn in hell now ^_^
Anyways Iv had 650 calories today. So that means i over ate and am done eating for the day.
Pluse i have to take off the calories i over ate today from tomorrow to make up for it.
Ummm thinking next week im going to lower my calorie intake by 100
<3 Alice
My so called "Mother" just called me fat...hmmm ya
She can go burn in hell now ^_^
Anyways Iv had 650 calories today. So that means i over ate and am done eating for the day.
Pluse i have to take off the calories i over ate today from tomorrow to make up for it.
Ummm thinking next week im going to lower my calorie intake by 100
<3 Alice
Saturday, June 12, 2010
La la lala
Todays was....ok could have been better....
Anyways, got a family dinner tomorrow and ya so thats all im eatting for the day....think i can get away with just soup?
hmmm
Have no need to purg lately. This is good. Yes, i know before i said i would never do this but i just snapped that day at school and didnt know what i was doing tell it was done...and im scared for the next melt down....hmmm
Ummm ya so moving on
Nothing much to say thinking of redoing how i do my posts spend more time on them cause they are really random.
<3 Alice
Anyways, got a family dinner tomorrow and ya so thats all im eatting for the day....think i can get away with just soup?
hmmm
Have no need to purg lately. This is good. Yes, i know before i said i would never do this but i just snapped that day at school and didnt know what i was doing tell it was done...and im scared for the next melt down....hmmm
Ummm ya so moving on
Nothing much to say thinking of redoing how i do my posts spend more time on them cause they are really random.
<3 Alice
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Ok
So today im already SOL cause of how bad i messed up. So tomorrow we will be starting my 500 cal diet. With 1hour and 30 mins of running and what not. Then cause my mother loves fruit, im gona have her start buying that instead of fatty chips (my dads a pig sometimes). Anyways ya ill let you all know how it works out on the first day.
<3 Alice
<3 Alice
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Im back
Good day my bloggers!!
Ok ya its been super long
But anyways let me tell you how iv done
To put it point blank i did shitty during my time gone iv gained almost all the weight back. So now that we have moved into our real new home I am going to start dropping it as fast as i can. School has let out for the summer and by the time i get back to school i want to be thin! Take that bitches!!!!
Ya so im the only person with a room down stairs and i have my own bathroom AND! everything i need for working out is down here! so life is good right now! anyways i cant wait to find out how well you all are doing....damn i got a lot of reading to do
<3 Alice
Ok ya its been super long
But anyways let me tell you how iv done
To put it point blank i did shitty during my time gone iv gained almost all the weight back. So now that we have moved into our real new home I am going to start dropping it as fast as i can. School has let out for the summer and by the time i get back to school i want to be thin! Take that bitches!!!!
Ya so im the only person with a room down stairs and i have my own bathroom AND! everything i need for working out is down here! so life is good right now! anyways i cant wait to find out how well you all are doing....damn i got a lot of reading to do
<3 Alice
Monday, April 19, 2010
...
i made myself throw up today ya
During school to -.- damn me
So in order to not do this again im chewing gum tomorrow....thats about it
Good luck ladys ^^
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
<3 Alice
During school to -.- damn me
So in order to not do this again im chewing gum tomorrow....thats about it
Good luck ladys ^^
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
<3 Alice
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Ya
LATE START!
That mean i dont go to school tell later mwa hahaha
Anyways so far iv only had
Eggs=100
And i was so proud of myself cause i went down to the kitchen and was about to do a full out bing on some ham but pulled away at the last min!Ga normally when im about to bing there is not stopping it. So ya.
Just a heads up on it cause i was happy got to go do some sit ups and shit before school....ya
<3 Alice
p.s. Project Skinny(kiki) If you read this you looked grate for you gig!
That mean i dont go to school tell later mwa hahaha
Anyways so far iv only had
Eggs=100
And i was so proud of myself cause i went down to the kitchen and was about to do a full out bing on some ham but pulled away at the last min!Ga normally when im about to bing there is not stopping it. So ya.
Just a heads up on it cause i was happy got to go do some sit ups and shit before school....ya
<3 Alice
p.s. Project Skinny(kiki) If you read this you looked grate for you gig!
Friday, April 9, 2010
!!
I did so flipping bad today AHH!!
I ate way to much and what i did eat was very unhealthy for this im only allowing myself 150 calories for the next three days the 400 calories for a day (Grandfathers taking me out^^ ill makes sure we go to a place with something healthy)Then again 150 calories for the rest of the week!
God im so stupid!
First that Ass hole of a guy comes into my life and is helping me with this ED that runs through my blood (my mother had/has one) then he pulse stupid shit after pulling me off to far! SHIT HEAD! Good im never going to let anyone take down my walls again they will stay up as high as my mind can build them. If i must lie to hide this from now on i will. If i must throw food away for this i will. And sadly i have given in if i must throw up for this I WILL!
HOWS THAT MOTHER FUCKING ASS HOLE!!! YOU HAVE HELPED WITH NOTHING!!!FUCK OFF AND STOP ACTING LIKE YOU DIDNT DO A FUCKING THING!!!
Anyways:)
I love you Alllllll with my heart of black (hehe im evil deep down and everyone knows it)
Ya im sorry for the choice of word that i have used in this blog :(
Just that guys an ass hole
<3Alice
Again sorry
I ate way to much and what i did eat was very unhealthy for this im only allowing myself 150 calories for the next three days the 400 calories for a day (Grandfathers taking me out^^ ill makes sure we go to a place with something healthy)Then again 150 calories for the rest of the week!
God im so stupid!
First that Ass hole of a guy comes into my life and is helping me with this ED that runs through my blood (my mother had/has one) then he pulse stupid shit after pulling me off to far! SHIT HEAD! Good im never going to let anyone take down my walls again they will stay up as high as my mind can build them. If i must lie to hide this from now on i will. If i must throw food away for this i will. And sadly i have given in if i must throw up for this I WILL!
HOWS THAT MOTHER FUCKING ASS HOLE!!! YOU HAVE HELPED WITH NOTHING!!!FUCK OFF AND STOP ACTING LIKE YOU DIDNT DO A FUCKING THING!!!
Anyways:)
I love you Alllllll with my heart of black (hehe im evil deep down and everyone knows it)
Ya im sorry for the choice of word that i have used in this blog :(
Just that guys an ass hole
<3Alice
Again sorry
Saturday, April 3, 2010
ya
Ummm remember that person who i said made me feel loved and what not....ya alittle unhappy with them...Thats being nice about it to....If i could even find the words for how badly they have pissed me off...
Welcoming you into my arms my dear Ana. Oh how you sooth the pain of my dead heart. What id do for your love.May i never leave you again. No man ill ever meet can make me feel the way you do.
Back to diet planing.....I must drop 10 pound before may! i will i will i will!
<3 Alice
Welcoming you into my arms my dear Ana. Oh how you sooth the pain of my dead heart. What id do for your love.May i never leave you again. No man ill ever meet can make me feel the way you do.
Back to diet planing.....I must drop 10 pound before may! i will i will i will!
<3 Alice
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
HAHAHA
Pop rock ya they are not good but its the only thing iv really had today and i needed a laugh.
Anyways at the end of the month we are moving in with my brother tell we find a house and im not sure it ill be able to post? Anyways got to go ill try and post more later sorry i keep leaving you short
Anyways at the end of the month we are moving in with my brother tell we find a house and im not sure it ill be able to post? Anyways got to go ill try and post more later sorry i keep leaving you short
Sunday, March 14, 2010
ya
Sold the house
Lost some...i forget how much sorry
Love you all sorry for not posting with everything that going on im not sure when my next post will be
And on the up side
I meet someone who makes me feel beautiful and loved
Lost some...i forget how much sorry
Love you all sorry for not posting with everything that going on im not sure when my next post will be
And on the up side
I meet someone who makes me feel beautiful and loved
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Haha
Ok i know iv said this about maybe a million times buuuuut NEW DIET PLAN hahaha i am so sorry you dont even have to read this i just want to get it down
Ok so the plan is to slowly start taking out meals and allowing 250 cal for each so im going to start with snacks give is a week then cut off dinner then give it another week and cut out lunch then slowly start cutting calories of for breakfast tell is only 90 calories MWA HAHAHA!!!!...i might take a little long then a week to cut stuff out though
But i think it will work how about you guys...
Anyways stay strong
<3 Alice
Ok so the plan is to slowly start taking out meals and allowing 250 cal for each so im going to start with snacks give is a week then cut off dinner then give it another week and cut out lunch then slowly start cutting calories of for breakfast tell is only 90 calories MWA HAHAHA!!!!...i might take a little long then a week to cut stuff out though
But i think it will work how about you guys...
Anyways stay strong
<3 Alice
Friday, February 26, 2010
House
So some people came by to look at the house...twice...is that a good sign or a bad, anyways.
Gained weight bla bla bla i fail bla bla bla same old same old....
Sooo we will no longer try we will do!
anyways let you know more later...
<3 Alice
P.S. thank you all my followers that just gave me so much more to work for
Gained weight bla bla bla i fail bla bla bla same old same old....
Sooo we will no longer try we will do!
anyways let you know more later...
<3 Alice
P.S. thank you all my followers that just gave me so much more to work for
Monday, February 15, 2010
Yep
Ok we are moving.... MOVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So now that, that is said i will move on. Ye right! Im so happy i hate this house and moving is keeping my mind off eating and im drinking a lot of water im so happy. I have not ran though and i really should. I got a lot of packing to do and not sure when we will be packing up the computer. When we do i will not post for a long time unless i can sneak around at my brothers house or find out how to post from my phone. Anyways everything doing good not sure how much i have lost but ill get back to you on that.
<3 Alice
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
So now that, that is said i will move on. Ye right! Im so happy i hate this house and moving is keeping my mind off eating and im drinking a lot of water im so happy. I have not ran though and i really should. I got a lot of packing to do and not sure when we will be packing up the computer. When we do i will not post for a long time unless i can sneak around at my brothers house or find out how to post from my phone. Anyways everything doing good not sure how much i have lost but ill get back to you on that.
<3 Alice
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
Saturday, February 13, 2010
.....
Iv fallen so hard it not even worth trying to get back up.
My mother found out im trying to loss "some" pounds. Anyways she gave me a bracelet that says "A brand new me" and it has the numbers 1 2 3 4 5 and they each have 10 pounds on them she said "every time you lose ten pound we will cross one out" kinda makes me not want to eat anymore...and a little sick to think my mother had an ED when she was my age...might even know about mine and is cheering it on.
Anyways Ill talk to you guys later
<3 Alice
My mother found out im trying to loss "some" pounds. Anyways she gave me a bracelet that says "A brand new me" and it has the numbers 1 2 3 4 5 and they each have 10 pounds on them she said "every time you lose ten pound we will cross one out" kinda makes me not want to eat anymore...and a little sick to think my mother had an ED when she was my age...might even know about mine and is cheering it on.
Anyways Ill talk to you guys later
<3 Alice
Friday, February 5, 2010
Soooo
Iv had about...1000 cals that not to bad but it is bad when i didnt really run today.
I was on my period and didnt feel like is but this is a good thing i drop weight on my period cause today was like one of the only times i went over 100 cals! Normaly it about 5 pounds at the most but i havnt looked yet so ill tell you later.
I feel so bad that i have not read any of you blogs lately but tonight i got forever to catch up on all the fun!
I love you all so much you keep me strong!
Last time i looked i lost...2 pounds! not to bad
<3 Alice
I was on my period and didnt feel like is but this is a good thing i drop weight on my period cause today was like one of the only times i went over 100 cals! Normaly it about 5 pounds at the most but i havnt looked yet so ill tell you later.
I feel so bad that i have not read any of you blogs lately but tonight i got forever to catch up on all the fun!
I love you all so much you keep me strong!
Last time i looked i lost...2 pounds! not to bad
<3 Alice
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Hmm
Not really sure what to say... Kind of in a down mood. Guy can be ass holes sometimes. People can be ass holes sometimes. Make you question who you can trust in this world. From the age of 5 my mother would always say "Trust is pointless...you trust no one" Reason one for walls...
Anyways, I'll talk to you ladies later.
3 Alice
Anyways, I'll talk to you ladies later.
3 Alice
Friday, January 22, 2010
PE
YA i got P.E. but we are danceing im burning calories yes but i really hate having to dance with a boy.
The guy that did ask me to dance was cute but that was only after like 5 guy asked out the girl next to me so it was a big let down. It felt like i was his last pick out of like 20 girls.
Anyways new plane new diet bla bla bla 600 calories i am alowd to eat but i must burn 600-700 cal =( ouch its a good thing i got PE (burns about maby 100-150) then i got to come home and burn what left i think im going to bring the stair climer in my room XD that will help alittle....
Hope you guys are fighting srong
Oh another ...1.5 pounds lost
<3Alice
The guy that did ask me to dance was cute but that was only after like 5 guy asked out the girl next to me so it was a big let down. It felt like i was his last pick out of like 20 girls.
Anyways new plane new diet bla bla bla 600 calories i am alowd to eat but i must burn 600-700 cal =( ouch its a good thing i got PE (burns about maby 100-150) then i got to come home and burn what left i think im going to bring the stair climer in my room XD that will help alittle....
Hope you guys are fighting srong
Oh another ...1.5 pounds lost
<3Alice
Saturday, January 16, 2010
crying
I saw a picture of me from like 5 months ago and i started crying at how fat i am still kind of am but hey this stuff happens. Tomorrow i doing a 300 cal diet and burning 600 cals. Im cleaning my room (that i can never keep clean for more then a week) cleaning the bathroom and taking a bath XD From this day on i will no longer goof off on my diet i will stay strong i will not give into that stupid fat crap that taste "oh so good" i will remind myself every day of my life "Nothing taste as god as thin fills" and i will not stop tell i hit my goal on the dot i can do this and i will not be a slave to food no more by may i want to be at my goal weight. May 1 that my goal and if i fail that then i dont know what i will do...
Hmm the word keep pounding in my head do they not?
Everyone stay strong and make goal they can help more then you think
<3 Alice
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Yep yep yep
Sooo I'm doing ok so far think im gona have to step it up cause iv been lazy alote lately.
Things to do in the next two weeks (i like makeing list help for some reason i life having stuff planed)
1: Lose 7-10 pounds
2: Clean room (im talking supper clean)
3: Clean the bathroom my brother and i share
4: Start my "learn a new word everyday" thing
5: Eat only 700 calories a day ONLY!! no more not even one
6: Burn 800 calories a day XD
7: start eat breakfast even if it just toast
8: Come up with some kind of homework schedule
9: Get some books to read
10: Post more
This all starts tomorrow
talk to you soon
<3 Alice
Things to do in the next two weeks (i like makeing list help for some reason i life having stuff planed)
1: Lose 7-10 pounds
2: Clean room (im talking supper clean)
3: Clean the bathroom my brother and i share
4: Start my "learn a new word everyday" thing
5: Eat only 700 calories a day ONLY!! no more not even one
6: Burn 800 calories a day XD
7: start eat breakfast even if it just toast
8: Come up with some kind of homework schedule
9: Get some books to read
10: Post more
This all starts tomorrow
talk to you soon
<3 Alice
Friday, January 8, 2010
School
Grr i have to do a power point on plate tectonics.... Wow this suck but i have to do it cause it 30pt and that will bring my grade up to a B And i hate being under a B it kills me!
Anyway i think i did good today i went over me 120 cal but that ok cause i didnt go over 600 cal in fact i had 600 cal to the point (i counted) So ya i feel soo full right now bla =P
Power point is due in Monday and i need 10 slides wish me luck
<3 Alice
Anyway i think i did good today i went over me 120 cal but that ok cause i didnt go over 600 cal in fact i had 600 cal to the point (i counted) So ya i feel soo full right now bla =P
Power point is due in Monday and i need 10 slides wish me luck
<3 Alice
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
So
Everything is going grate!
I havent gone over my 120 cal diet so far. Im thinking of haveing some rice (50 cal) that would leave me with 70 cal. So that would be cool...
Yep nothing really to say.
Stay strong
<3 Alice
I havent gone over my 120 cal diet so far. Im thinking of haveing some rice (50 cal) that would leave me with 70 cal. So that would be cool...
Yep nothing really to say.
Stay strong
<3 Alice
Monday, January 4, 2010
Can you comment?
Ok so i got an e-mail say people cant comment on my page XD we I'v got this before and have been trying to fix it.
And i think i have. If you want to comment or what not please lave one If you can leave a comment please do let me know by sending me and e- mail at
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
And thanks
Ok not that that has been taken care of i have picked to do a 120 cal diet if anyone wants to join that would be grate!
And last of all if you are fallowing me and i am not fallowing you please let me know so i cant do so i love reading your guys blog it makes me feel like im not so alone!
And i think i have. If you want to comment or what not please lave one
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
And thanks
Ok not that that has been taken care of i have picked to do a 120 cal diet if anyone wants to join that would be grate!
And last of all if you are fallowing me and i am not fallowing you please let me know so i cant do so i love reading your guys blog it makes me feel like im not so alone!
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Its been the longest time hasnt it
Sorry for not posting in forever grr i need to work on that dont i?
Anyways, I'v been doing alot lately i got a 79 on my computer test that i cant re-take pissed me off i worked so hard to do better then a 79!
Ok my mother got me an elliptical for x-mas WOW!!! they just made this 10x better cause i love the elliptical its more like a game then working out for me so it will take alot to get me off.
Had to end my fast and i start school on monday again!! GAA WHY!! Soo umm ya i already feel like a new fast or eating like 120 cals a day something like that cause i really dont want to even think of food right now. So if anyone want to email me and join or something please do it will me fun and it makes it so much better if i have someone to talk to
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
Not much to say...
Alright if anyone wants to know anything about me send me a question and I will answer it for you in my my next blog ill give it like 2 days.
<3 Alice
P.s. I need to start putting thinspo on my computer and not my phone cause im running out XD
Anyways, I'v been doing alot lately i got a 79 on my computer test that i cant re-take pissed me off i worked so hard to do better then a 79!
Ok my mother got me an elliptical for x-mas WOW!!! they just made this 10x better cause i love the elliptical its more like a game then working out for me so it will take alot to get me off.
Had to end my fast and i start school on monday again!! GAA WHY!! Soo umm ya i already feel like a new fast or eating like 120 cals a day something like that cause i really dont want to even think of food right now. So if anyone want to email me and join or something please do it will me fun and it makes it so much better if i have someone to talk to
alice.mybody.105@gmail.com
Not much to say...
Alright if anyone wants to know anything about me send me a question and I will answer it for you in my my next blog ill give it like 2 days.
<3 Alice
P.s. I need to start putting thinspo on my computer and not my phone cause im running out XD
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