Sigh

I have no idea what to do with myself. I cant even think. It not that im hungry i eat anyways. What the "F" is up with that. I cant tel my mother no cause i scared with that one little no she will find out everything!

I need to get a back bone. Im going to start walking 3 miles a day. maby running another mile. Or run untell i puke sound more fun.

"There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down"

Im running today no matter what none stop. I will be thinner in time for school. I will drop all that i can intime for back to school night. Before anyone sees me like this fat pig. I sacred so see how much i am. Im just going to say 180 or over by how fat i look.

Cutting my hair off. Hahaha i dont want anyone to know its me when i go back to school. Then maby i can start over. Ya know, show them the real me. Cause if i can i know they will love me. That they will stop with everything. That maby i can be normal and fit in for once. I just want to be loved ana.

*Stops for stupid girl crying over nothing*

Anyways ya ill try again later


<3 Emily Alice Arizona (or just Alice)

Soooo

Ya never started my 3 day fast so im starting it today
"Oh ow mommy my tummy hurt"
"Aww my poor baby whats wrong"
"I dont know it just hurts mommy" (saying mommy gets her every time)
"Well try not to eat to much today ok?"
"Ill try"

Easy ans pie....wait i hate pie. also think of deit pills or something not sure yet will see.



<3 Alice

3 Day Fast

Why only three days you ask?

Well you get all this crap out of my body! Nothing but water. All i have to do is tell me mother that i am not feeling well and she will go along with the whole thing on the third day though she might be like "You want to go to the Doctor" I will simply tell her give it a day or two and if its not better by then we will go. But it will get better mother. For i am the master of lies. With every word that leaves my mouth i have you at my feet. I can bring tear or joy to your life. Believe me on this. So stop fucking with my damn diet plan!


With this three day fast most of the crap will be done and gone with from my body. I will be nearly clean. I'm thinking at least every month doing this simple three day fast to clean it with that crap and junk that feels up over time. Maby even five day fast. With this cleaning maby my diet will work out better. I might even do this twice a month cause it so small and easy.


If this is a bad idea or if anyone has a better idea please let me know
Alice.mybody.105@gmail.com

<3 Alice

Hello, People

Calories Aloud:400
Intake so far:50
Burned:0


Need to fix that last one.

Last night my very best friend called me fat without a second thought to it. Now if it was anyone else who said this i would of had a fit and started yelling. But with her i took it as a ...well I'm not sure how i took it.

Anyways, The past few bags have been over sized belly after over sized belly. This is something that needs to be fixed ASAP. So today I'm starting off slowly taking it ones step at a time. I have only had half a fruit today i with this could be all but when dinner comes along again i will take it slowly with a smaller plate and two full glasses of water.

My half sister a type 2. and is like 50:50 chance right now of living or dieing. I'm not sure whats wrong yet cause no one will tell me. So it pretty sad around my house right now.

Anyways to day is cleaning day and I'm off to work will let you know how today works out later.

<3 Alice

Mermaids are real!

Ok so their is this video on youtube on how to make a mermaid tail...go ahead laugh such a childish thing right?


Laugh no more!

With this tail on you will be burning twice as many calories then you would have with out it! SUCK ON THAT

So my sister and i are going to make some ^_^

But before we do i want to lose some inches -.- i have maby two to 4 weeks to lose some pounds.....ya


Today went well at first, then i baby sat my nephew -.- i aways eat to much around him cause when i feed him he has to feed me...try telling a two year old no. and as soon as he starts talking i can throw up around him or talk to him about this dieting thing cause he will tell all little kids do -.-. I dont really throw up around him anymore cause one time after he was done eat he suck his finger in his mouth and acted like he was throwing up... that was the only time though...Monkey see monkey do, you have no idea how true that is.


<3 alice

Goal One:160 pound (ya i know im fat 166 pounds at the moment)

CRAMELLDANSEN

CRAMELLDANSEN


NOt to bad for a side work out if you do it long enough yes yes 5 hours so far HAHA!


Anyways ya just had to say that




<3 Alice

Thanks Mother

Wow...

My so called "Mother" just called me fat...hmmm ya

She can go burn in hell now ^_^


Anyways Iv had 650 calories today. So that means i over ate and am done eating for the day.

Pluse i have to take off the calories i over ate today from tomorrow to make up for it.

Ummm thinking next week im going to lower my calorie intake by 100


<3 Alice