La la lala

Todays was....ok could have been better....


Anyways, got a family dinner tomorrow and ya so thats all im eatting for the day....think i can get away with just soup?

hmmm

Have no need to purg lately. This is good. Yes, i know before i said i would never do this but i just snapped that day at school and didnt know what i was doing tell it was done...and im scared for the next melt down....hmmm

Ummm ya so moving on

Nothing much to say thinking of redoing how i do my posts spend more time on them cause they are really random.

<3 Alice

Ok

So today im already SOL cause of how bad i messed up. So tomorrow we will be starting my 500 cal diet. With 1hour and 30 mins of running and what not. Then cause my mother loves fruit, im gona have her start buying that instead of fatty chips (my dads a pig sometimes). Anyways ya ill let you all know how it works out on the first day.



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Im back

Good day my bloggers!!

Ok ya its been super long

But anyways let me tell you how iv done

To put it point blank i did shitty during my time gone iv gained almost all the weight back. So now that we have moved into our real new home I am going to start dropping it as fast as i can. School has let out for the summer and by the time i get back to school i want to be thin! Take that bitches!!!!

Ya so im the only person with a room down stairs and i have my own bathroom AND! everything i need for working out is down here! so life is good right now! anyways i cant wait to find out how well you all are doing....damn i got a lot of reading to do


<3 Alice

...

i made myself throw up today ya

During school to -.- damn me

So in order to not do this again im chewing gum tomorrow....thats about it


Good luck ladys ^^


alice.mybody.105@gmail.com

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Ya

LATE START!

That mean i dont go to school tell later mwa hahaha

Anyways so far iv only had

Eggs=100

And i was so proud of myself cause i went down to the kitchen and was about to do a full out bing on some ham but pulled away at the last min!Ga normally when im about to bing there is not stopping it. So ya.

Just a heads up on it cause i was happy got to go do some sit ups and shit before school....ya


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p.s. Project Skinny(kiki) If you read this you looked grate for you gig!

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I did so flipping bad today AHH!!


I ate way to much and what i did eat was very unhealthy for this im only allowing myself 150 calories for the next three days the 400 calories for a day (Grandfathers taking me out^^ ill makes sure we go to a place with something healthy)Then again 150 calories for the rest of the week!

God im so stupid!

First that Ass hole of a guy comes into my life and is helping me with this ED that runs through my blood (my mother had/has one) then he pulse stupid shit after pulling me off to far! SHIT HEAD! Good im never going to let anyone take down my walls again they will stay up as high as my mind can build them. If i must lie to hide this from now on i will. If i must throw food away for this i will. And sadly i have given in if i must throw up for this I WILL!


HOWS THAT MOTHER FUCKING ASS HOLE!!! YOU HAVE HELPED WITH NOTHING!!!FUCK OFF AND STOP ACTING LIKE YOU DIDNT DO A FUCKING THING!!!


Anyways:)

I love you Alllllll with my heart of black (hehe im evil deep down and everyone knows it)

Ya im sorry for the choice of word that i have used in this blog :(

Just that guys an ass hole

<3Alice

Again sorry

ya

Ummm remember that person who i said made me feel loved and what not....ya alittle unhappy with them...Thats being nice about it to....If i could even find the words for how badly they have pissed me off...


Welcoming you into my arms my dear Ana. Oh how you sooth the pain of my dead heart. What id do for your love.May i never leave you again. No man ill ever meet can make me feel the way you do.


Back to diet planing.....I must drop 10 pound before may! i will i will i will!


<3 Alice