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i made myself throw up today ya

During school to -.- damn me

So in order to not do this again im chewing gum tomorrow....thats about it


Good luck ladys ^^


alice.mybody.105@gmail.com

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Ya

LATE START!

That mean i dont go to school tell later mwa hahaha

Anyways so far iv only had

Eggs=100

And i was so proud of myself cause i went down to the kitchen and was about to do a full out bing on some ham but pulled away at the last min!Ga normally when im about to bing there is not stopping it. So ya.

Just a heads up on it cause i was happy got to go do some sit ups and shit before school....ya


<3 Alice

p.s. Project Skinny(kiki) If you read this you looked grate for you gig!

!!

I did so flipping bad today AHH!!


I ate way to much and what i did eat was very unhealthy for this im only allowing myself 150 calories for the next three days the 400 calories for a day (Grandfathers taking me out^^ ill makes sure we go to a place with something healthy)Then again 150 calories for the rest of the week!

God im so stupid!

First that Ass hole of a guy comes into my life and is helping me with this ED that runs through my blood (my mother had/has one) then he pulse stupid shit after pulling me off to far! SHIT HEAD! Good im never going to let anyone take down my walls again they will stay up as high as my mind can build them. If i must lie to hide this from now on i will. If i must throw food away for this i will. And sadly i have given in if i must throw up for this I WILL!


HOWS THAT MOTHER FUCKING ASS HOLE!!! YOU HAVE HELPED WITH NOTHING!!!FUCK OFF AND STOP ACTING LIKE YOU DIDNT DO A FUCKING THING!!!


Anyways:)

I love you Alllllll with my heart of black (hehe im evil deep down and everyone knows it)

Ya im sorry for the choice of word that i have used in this blog :(

Just that guys an ass hole

<3Alice

Again sorry

ya

Ummm remember that person who i said made me feel loved and what not....ya alittle unhappy with them...Thats being nice about it to....If i could even find the words for how badly they have pissed me off...


Welcoming you into my arms my dear Ana. Oh how you sooth the pain of my dead heart. What id do for your love.May i never leave you again. No man ill ever meet can make me feel the way you do.


Back to diet planing.....I must drop 10 pound before may! i will i will i will!


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HAHAHA

Pop rock ya they are not good but its the only thing iv really had today and i needed a laugh.



Anyways at the end of the month we are moving in with my brother tell we find a house and im not sure it ill be able to post? Anyways got to go ill try and post more later sorry i keep leaving you short

ya

Sold the house

Lost some...i forget how much sorry

Love you all sorry for not posting with everything that going on im not sure when my next post will be

And on the up side

I meet someone who makes me feel beautiful and loved

Haha

Ok i know iv said this about maybe a million times buuuuut NEW DIET PLAN hahaha i am so sorry you dont even have to read this i just want to get it down

Ok so the plan is to slowly start taking out meals and allowing 250 cal for each so im going to start with snacks give is a week then cut off dinner then give it another week and cut out lunch then slowly start cutting calories of for breakfast tell is only 90 calories MWA HAHAHA!!!!...i might take a little long then a week to cut stuff out though


But i think it will work how about you guys...

Anyways stay strong

<3 Alice