170.4

I couldn't run yesterday cause i worked till 8:30 (6 hours of walking 600 cal) but i did take my dog for a 30 min walk. Plus my mom made me eat this huge fatty meal. It made me feel sick after but i finished almost all of it to make her happy and took an extra diet pill. So i didn't gain. That good i thought i would be 172 or something. Anyways to make sure i lose tomorrow I'm having 600 cal today (i already had 300 so 300 left for family dinner) and around 2 ish I'm going to run for at least 40 min....i would like to go for an hour to make up sure yesterday but what ever ill do what i can. Also I'm redoing my room (just moving stuff around) not sure if i like the new layout. So ill try it for a week and if i don't like it ill change it back.

ummm. Tomorrow is that start of The Walking dead! Anyone else watch that? I love that show :D! So i have 15.4 pounds before I'm at my months goal! oh my gosh!.....umm ya ill see ya guys tomorrow

tired

Im so tired today. I have no clue why.(lack of food probably) and im working til 8:30 so I wont have time to run. So tomorrow ill do 45 min and walk my puppie for 30 to make up for it. But ya im really tired I might just buy me a poptart but I lost my money. Think my friend might have some but ya. Anyways see ya

170.4

Umm so maybe the scale is right? I don't know I'm going to go buy another one next month just to make sure. On the bright side iv lost 7 pounds in one week?(i for some reason don't believe it) I get paid next month BTW so that's why i cant buy it now. I also plan on buying some more running cloths. We shall see though cause i need to make a car payment and have gas money for the month.

I did have cereal for breakfast today...just a little like a hand full and some milk (100 cal) pulse a regular soda for my blood sugar (200) and for dinner tonight soup (250) I'm trying to stay under 600 calories this month and then next month ill only have 500.

I need to bring my grades up this week end. so Ill be doing homework all day Saturday. If i get done early then ill start cleaning and making a work out plan.

Short day today so I'm going to come home and nap for two hours the go to work.BTW iv been posting during lunch so these post might seem short cause lunch is 20 mins and i don't have a lot of time. I try to post at night using my phone but that doesn't work sometimes. So ya lets hope tomorrow I'm in the 160's ^_^ my goal this month it 155 :D
Next month its going to be 144.
Gotta go love ya

171.2

Not really sure if thats right.... 2 pounds in one day?
I did have a slice of pizza for dinner but thats it. Im long eating dinner and have one regular soda a day. I ran for 30 mins then took my puppie for a run. Lots of running. Going to start adding in situps too. I tried to do it today but the puppie wanted to play. He is cute. Taking diet pills too. Ummm. I dont know im tired so goodnight!

Real post.

Ok hi !

Ya and Im making progress. Last night with clothing on and a burrito in my stomach (the only thing i ate that day) i was 173.2! iv lost 4 pound compared to my 177 that was like a week ago.

I bought diet pills and even though it is snowing and fucking cold i have been running. Today im fasting but as much as i want it to be just water it cant. I get low blood sugar and have to drink something like a soda(none diet). If i dont i get migraines and cant do anything for the rest of the day. So today i have had one normal soda(that im still finishing) and i will have one right before work. BTW my job is me walking around for 3 hours with a vacuum on my back. 300 calories if you would like to know ^_^.

I plan to be in the 160's by next Tuesday.

gotta go someones came home

your pissing me off so ya im done fuck you

Today...or to night is the start of a new life. I dont care for anyone after today. Im taking care of my self and no one eles. Im not following other peoples rules anymore cause when others try to help it just making the situation worse. Im taking over my life and making it mine. No one will control me anymore.im doing what I want and it will be fore me. If I mess up then I have myself to blame and its my mess up to fix. Nobody is going to tell me how to live. And mom your baby girl says fuck off and grow up. Your bitchy ways are annoying so stop taking everything out on me im done with you.

thanks Vlad

It was the first time anyone called me fat to my face. Normally they just say im chubby and dont need to worry about it...for once in my life I cant hold back the tears ....i never thought the truth said so carelessly would hurt so much...now nothing will ever bring back that little selfestem thats I had managed to hold on to.nothing will bring it back cause my weight was the one thing that could always get to me.and you played that card...that hurt like help and its hard to believe you couldnt even see the pain flood into my face. I hope I get so skinny that it scare the shit out of you that you see every bone jab out and bruse my flesh I hope when they tell you im in the hospital due to an eatting disorder the guilt eats at you..cause swear im never eating again I was going to do this the healthy way but you ruined it...and you ruined me. Hope your happy when im dead and gone!

sorry

It's been way to log.

So we moved and i got a job.
So i wake up at 7am and go to school until 2:30 then i go to work right after until 5:30. I get home about 6.

I have all this time to not eat food. and could get away with it. hmmmmmm Idea ^_^

I'm fasting. So easy. as soon as i get home i grab a drink and take a bath get dressed pick up my room get ready for school go to bed. ITS PERFECT!

I don't know how much i weight right now ill check tomorrow though. And when we get the home gym set up ill start running on the weekends. Id run during the week but i don't have much time and stuff. I do have PE this term so that's a pulse. and my job is me walking around for three hours emptying trash cans. Some times their heavy so i get my arms worked alittle too.

I get a new bed tomorrow. Cant wait! its a queen and i have always had a twin so its going to be epic.

New blog

http://everdaythoughtsandpains.blogspot.com

Is my new blog.

Just to let you know ^_^

Long time!

I dont even know what to say.

I was doing well for a little then i failed and just stopped trying. This must be fixed!

We are moving again. Maybe really soon if we get the house we just put an offer on. Maybe in six months if we dont. In the end i will not enter a new house and life fat. Goal to lose 30 pounds before Aug 23. Better get started.

I started a new blog....if i decide to switch ill give you all the link if i dont then whatever.

Thinking of taking up painting.

Ill update you more often im sorry :P

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Today is a new chance to change

From today on i will no longer slack off. Sorry my post arnt really about anything...ill be fixing that


Tomorrow ,well today really, ill be starting my fast. My mother got her job so it should be a lot easier. Ill let you know how it goes later.


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Hello

Im about 175. not a huge change but. whatever. I should have done better.Im going to start getting up around 10:30 to run and do chores. Iv always been a night time person so thats 5:00am my time. im going start writing down everything i eat. Cause i really find the boring and something i dont want to do i hope it will help me eat less.

Think i might just let my hair grow out.....really long. But it dose need a trim so i will being doing that saturday. I have really long soft shinny thick hair. Everyone loves it. I on the other hand hate having to wake up every morning and brushing out the rats nest that forms when i roll around. though its nice when i finish my head hurts like hell for a few hours. It grows fast too so thats nice.

I hate looking in the mirror. All i see is fat. HUGE legs. Cement bag of a stomach. Logs for arms. Wide face. fat fingers and toes. Just everything. I feel ugly being fat.





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Tired

Yesterdays intake=nothing

today=two Cheetos.

Thats what 10 cals in the past few days. My will power is strong right now

Joyful!


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Grumble gumble

slightly upset. Mainly just cause all i could do it think about my strech marks. Mainly just from growing(from pubirty maybe from being fat to) i have spent a few hours looking up on linehow to get rid of them. The one that was said to work the best was like $300 for a month. So i looked up some cheep $6 one that im going to try. If any of them work ill let you know.

Thats about it.


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drivers ed -.-

I haven't been able to sleep in alllllll summer and I'm a night time person so it sucks. thinking i might just half to go come home sleep and then get up and do what i had planned. Everything was perfect everyday i had something to do so i wouldnt binge. Now i have to plan around it. Grrrr. So tonight ima be doing that.

By the way BOA- eat you up is and amazing song and if you watcher the video she can dance its so cool.


ya and all my parents are doing is buying junk food. we have ZERO healthy food in the house right now. BUT on the pulse side my mom got her job so i dont have to worry about eating around her and she will be to tired to make dinner.

haven't weighted in in a long time and im scared to. so Going to wait till next Thursday to do that. and ill update you then.

going to get my ears priced. might even do some myself. I love body art.ways going tog new


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last day

School ends tomorrow. GOOD! no more jerks....and i can fast without a worry cause my mom is 95% sure getting a job. Pray that she dose. Cause then i can work out when she isnt home and sleep all day. ^_^

Im cutting my hair off too. I have fairly long hair and im cutting it...all off 7 and a half inches about... maybe mroe i dont know im still looking i found two that i love so im going to show them to you and have you guys pick. Its going to be my reward for getting into the 140s

Summer

So school ends this Friday. My plan for the summer sleep.
Not all summer nonono

Everyday to avoid eating im going to sleep 90% of my day. The other ten im going to get up work out clean get on the computer.

I don't plan on doing much. I love the summer its a time where i can just waste away into nothing.

Thinking once lose 30ish pounds im going to cut my hair off. All of it. Just go to find a style i like


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Tired

Never felt this tired in my life

Perpare for bad eatting

Today

smoothie=110
scone=400
popcorn and candy=250
pasta=400
potato's=300


total=1460.....baaaaaad


and i am starting a fast tomorrow. think ill be to tired to eat and i have to pay fees so no money for food :D.


bed must sleep

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Yet again

If you guys havnt noticed by now i get sick...alot. This time i think its just allergies being a bitch. Let hope im right.

Fuck i dont care anymore. This week has just been a lazy week i dont want to do anything but sit in bed.


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Down one

Got my permit :D

The picture is but ugly. If i loss me the 50 pounds i get to take a new one though :D


Got a lot of work to do. Im going to get soe too....i slightly am looking forward to it. lol


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